Done!

My work is all done for this week of course! I'm honestly really glad its over.. now i have to sit back and take it easy again! and well wait for my results.. *crossing my fingers*.. well my shoulder has a small partial thickness tear and the fluid in my shoulder is almost gone (which is bad) well i have to go for 6 weeks of intense physio with Andrew!! I'm sad. I 've been through many things but what I'm going through now it truly the worst.. my heart aches and I'm so disoriented.. All that keeps me going in work and the unbearable pain from my shoulder. I don't know what to do anymore and I don't want to give up but sometimes that's all I want to do. Well I'm probably going to watch a movie and go to pancake parlor (sister has an interview:) it benefits me is some ways hehe!

Cramming Work!

It's 3am in the morning and it's safe to say that I'm done with my work.. I'm so tired and feel like hitting the sack but I'm waiting for a certain someone to come online. My day has been filled with upside down smiles and a strain on my shoulder it hurts.. I don't think I'll able to move it much tomorrow.. I hope the Neurofen helps though! Well I have an afternoon class and also the physio therapy session i postponed on Monday. I don't really know whether I'll make it in the morning.. I would recommend 'whoever reads this' mount a board ( make a tiny window) and stick a picture behind it. All the work I did today was worthy.. All the effort.. Till next time then..

Tuesday Mornings!

I was unable to open my big eyes and get my day started if he wasn't online to wake me up.. I truly miss him..I was 8 mins late for class but it was a very dull morning.. it was cold and it was raining! The first 2hrs of class was filled with boredom on how use a search engine! And i was told to be quite because i was answering too many questions! Where's the justice?!! Its not like anyone else wants to answer the ass numbly dull library liaison! My morning will extend into a very boring day because it started out with research and half of the class isn't here! Aside from all that mushu-ness Antonio Gaudi! Is sooo awesome!! look him up!

Stubborn Mule

Well with the recent development of my shoulder injury ( inflammation and a minor tear in my muscle) I have been trying to avoid the doctors and the physio therapist office.. I don't know why I'm avoiding those places.. Maybe its the long lectures or the awkwardness.. I was suppose to get up and go for my appointment at 11:30 am today yet i couldn't bring myself to do it i was so nervous and for some reason i couldn't get out of my bed.. My week has been so hectic and depressing i have to face my weight and i can't do it and i have a lot of work to do which is driving me nuts! Tonight will be a long night of printing and a shitload of layout work! Last work i was show en how our work was suppose to be presented in 'Design Communications' and i didn't saw it coming at all! I was so far away from accomplishing that! I was Fuck!!! I'm so screwed! and all this was due d on this coming Thursday! and i have 5 more layout's and one more layout that's is suppose to be on a grid and then the cut out and i hope i wont be losing my precious mind anytime sooner!! Well that's me for now!

..sigh..

I want to smile again..I haven't done that in a while..My day started out with a sense of discomfort..I promise myself i was going to look at things in my life and be optimistic about it..but instead i frown on everything my day, my dreams and mostly me..I can't bare to look at myself in the mirror without feeling huge..but recently i feel like wanting to be sweep of my feet once again i miss the soft kisses on my lips and the way he would look at me..yes there's a man in my life..i miss the way he smiles at me..this entry of mine is not going to be long but i just want to get the feeling of loneliness out of system..

My Friday..

Yes! It's Friday night and I'm home alone! and I'm typing this while reading my cosmopolitan and having ice-cream at the same time. My day was like a melting bowl of ice-cream! Fridays are always the worst! I have a 9:30am class and I'm an Art student so you probably can imagine the sleepless nights and the very heavy bags! As i got out of my bed i knew i was going to be late! It was 8:30am and I rushed to the shower threw on some clothes and walked to the tram stop! it was late again! I was basically real F***ed! The moment i arrived class there was hardly anyone there! I was to tired to do any work and so i fiddled with pieces of paper trying to pass my time! John Love my Principle and Elements teacher was eager to drag our sorry butts to the State of Design fair! It was cold and i wasn't in the mood of leaving my class! Time passed so quickly.. before i knew it was looking at Klaus Rinke recent drawings it was amazing..his work consisted of charcoal and acrylic paint on canvas as i stare the masterpiece i wonder whether if i was going to be as successful as he is today.. the world is surrounded by so much talent and now there are more competitions then ever.. i could feel my heart racing.. i had to try not letting that get to my head and so i continued looking at Grace Tan's work how she built a paper sculpture shaped like a fish net and hung it on the wall in consisted of do many pieces of paper stapled together. I knew i had to get out of there so my friends and I decided to go for lunch my mind was suddenly at peace.. for a moment before i started thinking about am good enough for this course? Will i make it? Then as i started eating bits of my food i looked at myself in a very disgusted way.. I always felt insecure, but when go to Australia i felt like i didn't belong.. I have lived in many countries but some how Australia was different.. Well that's me for now! Till tomorrow then..